Where in the Hell is Matt?

This video is completely worth watching!

Thankful

This Thanksgiving I am thankful for (in alphabetical order)...

Aaron, adventures, Allan, America, America's Next Top Model, Amy, Andrea, Annabelle, April, Ashley M., Ashley P, A Time to Kill, August, Aunt Michelle, Aunt Ronda, Aunt Teresa, Aunt Trudy, BBQ, Becca, black bean burgers, Blaire, blue, blueberries, blue skies, Boy's Life, Brandyn, Brett, breezes, bunnies, bubble baths, bubble gum, Caleb, Calvin and Hobbs, Calypso, candles, cardigans, cats, Catch-22, cell phones, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Chico, children's books, China, choir memories, Christmas, Christmas Lights, Christmas Trees, Christy, Cinder, Claire, clarity, Clayton C., Cleo (the 1st and 2nd) Clint, Clue, coats, Coco, coffee, Colorado, Colorado Avalanche, Colorado Rockies, comforters, Crash, creativity, cupcakes, curtains, Dad, dancing, dangly earrings, Daniel, Danielle, Dan in Real Life, Denver Broncos, Desperate Housewives, Devon, devotion, Diet Dr. Pepper, differences, Disney World, dogs, Donna P., Dr. Fitz, Dr. McCurry, Dr. Pape, Dr. Russet, Dr. Salvador, Dr. Soomers, Dr. Spencer, dressing up, ducks, Durango, Elizabeth, Ella Fitzgerald, Emily K. (now N), Emily P., Enchanted, encouragement, Erycka, every kind of herbal tea, experiences, fall, family, fans, February, flowers, flutes, fog, freshly washed sheets, friends, Friends (TV Show) Gilmore Girls, Glee, God, goodness, good books, grandfather clocks, Grandma Grosse, Grandma Smith, Grandpa Grosse, Grandpa Smith, grape fruit, grapes, green, green beans, Hairspray, hand written letters, Hannah, Hanna J., Harry Potter movies, Harry Potter Series, having painted toenails, head bands, heaters, heels, heterosexuals, Holy Spirit, homosexuals, Hook, hope, hugs, humor, ice cream, It's a Wonderful Life, Jake, January, Jared, Jean Marie, Jeremy, Jessica C., Jessica W., Jessie Dog, Jesus, jewelry, Jordan, Josh Groban, joy, Julia, July, June, karaoke, Kasa, Katy, Keegan, Kelly Clarkson, Kelsie, Kendra, Kenna, Kim, kindness, kiwi, Krystal, Kyndal, laughing, lessons learned, Life is Beautiful, love, Lydia, Madilynn, make-up, Mallory, March, Marcus, Marley and Me, Matt Friend, May, medicine, Megan, memories, Misty, Mom, Monica, mountain lakes, mountains, muffins, Mulan, musicals, My 3rd Graders, My 5th Graders, Mystic River, naps, new clothes, Niki, Oh Brother Where Out Thou?, orange, oranges, parks, Pastor Larry, Pastor Middendorf, Pastor Thulson, peaches, Pearl Harbor, patience, peace, pearls, pecans, photographs, pianos, picture traditions, Pirates of the Caribbean, pools, Poppy, President Bush, President Obama, President Regan, privacy, Project Runway, pumpkin pie, purple, Pushing Daisies, Rachel R. (now E.), rafting, rainbows, reading, Reading Rainbow, Rebecca D., Rebekah, Redeeming Love, red grapefruit juice, road trips, Robin, Runaway Bride, selflessness, scales, scarves, scenic drives, September, Shane, sherbet, shopping, singing, skinny jeans, sleeping in, Smallville, snow, songs, spring, Stargate SG-1, Stephanie, strength, stolen moments, straightners, strawberries, streams, summer, sunrises, sunsets, sunshine, surprises, sweet tea, swings, Sybil, tattoos, Thanksgiving, The Bean Trees, The Colbert Report, The Emperor's New Groove, the fresh feeling you get after taking a shower, the fresh feeling you get after taking a shower, the girls that were in my halls as an RA, the girls that were in my halls as an RA, The Notebook, The Office, The Olympics, things to look forward to, thunderstorms, Tiana, Tiffany, Trisha, tulips, Tyler, Uncle Curt, Uncle Jay, Uncle Jeff, Uncle Tim, understanding, Veronica Mars, watches, What Not to Wear, When Harry Met Sally, wild flowers, Will and Grace, Word Girl (my current fish), Word Girl....

...and so very much more. I have so much to be thankful for!

Do-Re-Mi

This kind of thing would happen all the time in my perfect world.

I'm scared.

So on December 12th I am going to getting a diploma and "stepping out into my future." And I am scared. For the first time in my life I cannot think ahead a year and have at least somewhat of an idea of where I will be. Even my senior year of high school, when I wasn't sure where I was going to college I at least knew that I was going to be a college. Know when I try to think about where I will be in a year I am drawing a complete blank.

I think teaching is the best career for me, but I could be wrong? What if in two years I am looking back and wishing that I had a different career? What if I feel stuck?


To be honest, my biggest fear is that I am going to be lonely and friendless. There is no doubt in my mind that what I am going to miss most about college is my friends. I am sure that we will make plans to see each other at graduations and so forth, but it just isn't the same, and there is always the chance that they will fall through. I am just scared that they will move on with their lives, and I will not. They will forget all about me and I will be a pathetic women who will look back at college as the prime of my life, and not be able to move on. I will come home from work everyday and just sit by myself and watch TV.

I want to remember college and my friends as an amazing time in life, but not the best time in my life. I want to know that life will get even better, but there is no way of knowing this. And that is why I am scared.

Daring to Dream

I have been a bit of an insomniac lately (if you're ever bored at 3 AM call me- I'll be awake) and although it is frustrating, it does come with its advantages. As I am lying there in bed trying to sleep my mind runs wild. I have so much time to think, and I think about just about everything. If you know me well, then you know that for a few years now I have talked about how being a children's author would be the dream job for me. You can work from your home in your pajamas. You still get the joy of working with children by traveling to schools. If you're successful enough you can make some money doing it too! And lets face it- it is just a nifty job in general!

I had always thought that perhaps if I just came up with the right idea for a children's series, I could pursue being a children's author. Well... my sleepness nights have led to an idea. Once my student teaching is over I am going to get started. Don't worry. I am not going to quit teaching to pursue writing- this may turn into nothing more than a hobby. All I know is that I think it will bring joy to my life. I need something that I can invest myself in and take delight in doing. I think this is just the ticket.

Bragging Rights

I have some pretty good lookin siblings! Here are some recent pictures!

Happy Birthday Kyndal

Although it may get annoying at times, I love you and your spicy, diva attitude- I would not change you a bit! Happy Birthday Lil' Sis! I love you sooo much!